I made a record for my longest running time without stopping yesterday at 34 minutes. I sprinted towards the last minute of my 34-minute run and when I stopped, I thought I was going to faint. I suddenly feel dizzy. I immediately grabbed my pocari sweat to replenish the lost electrolytes brought about by running. I continue to walk even if I feel dizzy, afraid that I might collapse if I stop. I feel like crying as I realized that nobody will catch me when I fall. I can call no one to tell what had happened to me. It is just a sad reality that I’m alone and will always be alone.
I shouldn’t have stopped running, I shouldn’t have stopped endorphins to kick in while I run. I should have run until my last breath so that I will no longer feel alone, so that I will no longer feel the need of someone to catch me when I fall, so that I will no longer cry.